Back from the deep

It was a trying week. I had another breakdown. This one wasn’t my fault. It came through the realization of the possibility that my partner may actually be mentally ill.  Maybe he is, and maybe he isn’t. The loneliness I felt Monday night into Tuesday morning is the kind that dissolves your insides in acid, … More Back from the deep

Memories of clinging

During the years of 2010, 2011, and even 2012, I blogged a lot on here. I shared with you my favorite books, CDs, music genres, websites, my health issues, and how damn good it felt to leave Dallas for greener and hillier San Antonio pastures. I talked about how good it felt to have graduated … More Memories of clinging

Swirly thoughts

Today I’m processing.  Trying to make sense of what happened yesterday.  Trying to reconcile equal and conflicting feelings of relief, grief, and emptiness.  Caught in a twilight zone between “meh, I’m OK; it’s just another Saturday” and complete cognitively-paralyzing brain fog. It’s like going through a “fun house” as a little kid, that’s not quite … More Swirly thoughts